so... i'm in menopause! or
i'm having menopause! or i'm going through menopause! whatever way is more
correct to say it, i've heard so much about it, and know so little about it. so
in trying to be proactive about what to expect, i skimmed some books and
websites and mostly find information about physiology, hormone replacement
therapy pros and cons, body changes, mood swings, craziness, sex changes, and
other topics that almost always focus on the negative. if the information is
not outright negative, then it's about how i can minimize the negative things
that will inevitably happen to me now.
i don't think menopause
knows who it's dealing with here. i so rarely come from a perspective of how to
minimize the negative. so i dug *more* for good things. with the
exception of a few good nuggets, most of the positive information i found
online was about the end of some negative aspects of having periods, i.e.
menopause means no more periods, a new excuse for being bitchy, a time when i
can wear white pants with no worries, a time when i'll save money from not
needing to buy period supplies anymore, the end of monthly cramps, and a time
when people can't say i'm crying and yelling because i'm on the rag anymore.
and i found myself thinking... these aspects are the *good* parts...?
that's it!? really...?
and all of that is contrary
to how i'm actually feeling. i'm feeling warmer, happier, more alive, more calm
yet more intense, more centered, and more vivid. i feel like a different
doorway to my self has opened and it's inviting me to walk through it to
discover new things, as well as old things i always knew and let myself forget.
so... i googled more to see
if i'd just missed the sites with good info. and i did find an article here or
there, or input to menopause questions with a sentence or three that echoed the
few good nuggets i'd found in my initial search ~ i might become less tolerant
but in a good way; i might become more sensitive to things that matter; i might
have more time for me and become more self assured; i might find inner
strength.
and those are the things i
was hoping to find; those are the intense, vivid, and empowering things i am
beginning to feel. those feelings are soo much bigger than any of the negative
aspects that may happen to me yet. and i was happy to find a few friends who
shared similar good experiences. so i don't believe i'm alone in this
reawakening. yet maybe people are too busy living their awakenings to take the
time to share the journey? or maybe i haven't found their writings yet.
so... perhaps i'll share my
journey for as long as i feel like doing so, with a huge focus on the positive.
and maybe a blog is a way to do that, with invitations for others to share
their positive menopause thoughts, feelings, and journeys as they wish. and
maybe it becomes a collective journal so that other women might discover some
amazing aspects of menopause to look forward to. and maybe that helps to offset
the rivers of negative information they'll encounter.
i'm going to rock
menopause! cause that's how i fly. with our thoughts, we might make our world.
with our friends, we might shape our flight.
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